She just wants to grow
To grow like a pearl,
Layer by layer by layer
Making mistakes along the way
Then covering them up with the next layer
She just wants to grow like a pearl

She just wants to remember
To feel what she feels now,
later in her life.
Sometimes she thinks if things aren’t written down, photographed, documented they will
be forgotten.
Her grandmother had Alzheimers.
She just wants to remember all the layers.
Do pearls remember their under-layers?
She just wants to remember.

She just wants to be able to quit.
To stop for a while,
to feel feelings, be destroyed or destructed for a few moments before returning
to the real world,
to cope.
Sometimes you just have to quit.

She just wants to live in a community
Do pearls live in communities?
No, they are stuck in side the shell with no friends.
She just wants to NOT feel stuck like a pearl.
She just wants to live in a community of pearls outside their shells.
The pearls could watch one another grow,
taking notice of the new layers on the pearls around them.
She just wants to live in a community.

She just wants to be a pearl.
People love pearls.
She just wants to be loved.