“She Just Wants”

When she was a baby, she just wanted to be held.
She cried and cried,
and only her mother’s soft embrace
soothed her.

When she was a toddler, she just wanted to freeze
time as it was – as the only child;
she learned jealousy when her sister was born,
for this new infant threatened to deplete her source of love that she relied on.

When it was time to start school, she just wanted to stay at home;
she “needed” – according to her family (and, really, society) –
to go to school – to make that
first independent step.

When she was in first grade, she just wanted to be best friends with Nora –
and she was –
but in third grade that friendship ended,
when Sarah moved to town.
She just wanted to be normal –
to be liked –
to fit in.

When she was in high school, she just wanted to get perfect grades,
because she just wanted to go to a “good” college,
because she just wanted to get a “good” job,
and have a “good” life.

When she applied to college, she just wanted to finish the applications,
but when she was done with the applications,
she just wanted to find out where she was accepted.
and when she found out her top choice rejected her, she just wanted to make a decision.
So she chose Smith.
And it was an excellent choice.

Now, she just wants to figure out what’s next –
She wants someone to direct her where to go,
but what she doesn’t realize is that she is her
own conductor; she has the answers, because
she knows that
she just wants to know how to love herself when she feels unloved, and that
she just wants to know how to find relaxation when she begins to fall slave to the power of
stress, and that
she just wants to surround herself with people who understand, support, and accept
who she is.